I know that I’m capable of doing big things but I also like have like a natural flair that comes so easy for writing about make up and also doing make and piecing outfits together and I’m naturally good at it but I just don’t know :-(. I want a good job but I also want to feel happy with what I do in life

Feel so ill Matthew has been really great the past couple of day even go me dressed the other day cause I didn’t have any energy and even reblogging posts for me cause they’re pretty

I just realised tonight how much better I’ve got, after the previous 3 years of going through the repeated cycle of making myself sick and not eating, I’ve finally got over it. I didn’t realise before how thin I was getting and how pale and tired I was and now everything is different I don’t look as tired, I’m not pale and I’ve out on around a stone meaning that I’m now at a healthy weight on the bmi scale. I know this sounds snobby but I’m proud I got through it all and I’m proud I realise what I was like before. I could thank the people around me enough for supporting me. It’s just crazy how much better it all is.

Only told a few people but I only have like 20 followers on tumblr who are lovely so I want to tell you all. I guess I was in the right place at the right time but I’m supposed to be modelling next month which is kinda massive for me

Today was so super lovely. I went for a picnic with Abi, Zand, Katie, Camille and Matthew and we ate lots and beforehand me and Matthew went to McDonald’s and he got 40 chicken nuggets which was funny. Then we had it and messed around taking the piss out of fifty shades of grey and shouting holy cow at everything and eating and then we went to the Rec and went on the swing and Matthew jumped off and got extremely muddy so we went to Morrys. Then we talked and the started making our ways back home and my grandparents from London were at my house and then Matthew met them and then we went out to buy cake ingredients and me and Matthew and my sisters made a cake and it was just super lovely and stuff.

So now I’m going to see the Red Hot Chilli Pepper’s, rather exciting